Deep V-neck top : Men trend 2009

Deep-V T-shirts are going to be the bane of men's fashion trends in Spring-Summer 2009. For that very reason I'm thankful that the Deep V-Neck trend won't be confined to the tee.

men hairstyle for 2009

as 2009 is near , here are some of the hairstyle for guys in 2009 .

Diary ( Part 2 )

With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face.

She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"

I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.
Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain wouldl go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide. But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young, she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three years's feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end, that was what I had in mind.

The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, loosing our last moments in silence.
I saw the taxi from far away, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."

She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her. I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.

She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words.

2009 resolution

few more days gonna marks the end of 2008 , so got a number of resolution gonna make for 2009 .

my 2009 resolution

1. renovate my entire room .

2. travel to australia , japan and china

3. plan to open a shop in 2- 3 years time

4. reach the target of my saving ( hehe , not saying how much )

5. be happy .

Diary ( Part 1 )

It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.

I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together.She said, "I miss you."I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home."She did not open up her umbrella, I knew she wanted to share mine.I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."
Unwillingly, She opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.

Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!"Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, she said she would take the train back home.

Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night.

But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."

We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship.

We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.
She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."

ah beng jokes

Ah Beng bought a new mobile.
He sent a message to everyone from his Phone Book & said
'My Mobile No. Has changed. Earlier it was Nokia 3310 Now it is 6610' ====================================>
Ah Beng : I am a Proud, coz my son is in Medical College.
Friend: Really, what is he studying.
Ah Beng: No he is not studying, they are Studying him.
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Ah Beng : Doctor, In my dreams, I play football every night.
DR: Take this tablet, you will be ok.
Ah Beng : Can I take tomorrow, tonight is final game.
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Ah Beng : If I die will u remarry?
Wife: No! I'll stay with my sister. But if I die will u remarry?
Ah Beng : No, I'll also stay with your sister
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Ah Beng : People consider me as a 'GOD'
Wife: How do you know??
Ah Beng : When I went to the Park today, everybody said, Oh GOD! U have come again..
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Ah Beng complained 2 Police: Sir all items are missing, Except the TV
in my house.
Police: How the thief did not take TV???
Ah Beng : I was watching TV news...
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Ah Beng comes back 2 his car & find a note saying 'Parking Fine'
He Writes a note and sticks it 2 pole 'Thanks 4 complement'
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How do you recognize Ah Beng in School?
He is the one who erases the notes from the book when the teacher erases the board.
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Once Ah Beng was walking he had a glove on one hand and not on other.
So the man asked him why he did so. He replied that the weather forecast
announced that on one hand it would be cold and on the other hand it
would be hot.
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Ah Beng in a bar and his cellular phone rings. He picks it up and Says
'Hello, how did you know I was here?'
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Ah Beng - why r all these people running?
Man - This is a race, the winner will get the cup
Ah Beng - If only the winner will get the cup, why others running? =========================================
Teacher: 'I killed a person' convert this sentence into future tense
Ah Beng : The future tense is 'u will go to jail'
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Ah Beng told his servant: Go and water the plants
Servant: It's already raining
Ah Beng : So what? Take an umbrella and go.
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A man asked Ah Beng why Ahmad Badawi goes walking in the Evening and not in the morning
Ah Beng replied Ahmad Badawi is PM not AM

Let me Love You ...

Once upon a time, there was once a guy who was very much in love with this girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of papercranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small executive in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualise any future for the both of them, so let's go their own ways there and then... heartbroken, the guy agreed.

When he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of himself. Finally with all these hardwork and with the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company...

"You never fail until you stop trying." he always told himself. "I must make it in life!"One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realise those were his ex-girlfriend's parents. With a heart in getting back at them, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore, he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He had made it in life!

Before the guy can realise, the couple was walking towards a cemetary,and he got out of his car and followed them...and he saw his ex-girlfriend, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone... and he saw his precious papercranes in a bottle placed beside her tomb. Her parents saw him. He walked over and asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did not leave for France at all. She was stricken ill with cancer. In her heart, she had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want her illness to be his obstacle ... therefore she had chosen to leave him.

She had wanted her parents to put his papercranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again he can take some of those back with him. The guy just wept ...the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can't have them and will never see them again.....

25th dec ( pic taken )

25th Dec ..

Merry Christmas !! guess some of you guys must be enjoying yourself and some of you just lie back and sleep over it .

well for me , my very first time went to church , and listen to preach . to be honest , didnt really suit me . but still i manage to feel the christmas is here .

2008 christmas carol

Latest Christmas carol for 2008, haha !!!

You ' d better watch out

You ' d better not cry

You ' d better keep cash

I ' m telling you why:

Recession is coming to town.

It ' s hitting you once,

It ' s hitting you twice

It doesn ' t care if you ' ve been careful and wise

Recession is coming to town

It ' s worthless if you ' ve got shares

It ' s worthless if you ' ve got bonds

It ' s safe when you ' ve got cash in hand

So keep cash for goodness sake,

HEY You ' d better watch out

You ' d better not cry

You ' d better keep cash

I ' m telling you why:

Recession is coming to town!

Finance products are confusing

Finance products are so vague

The banks make you bear the cost of risk

So keep out for goodness sake,

OH You ' d better watch out

You ' d better not cry

You ' d better keep cash

I ' m telling you why:

Recession is coming to town.

Merry Christmas !! Ho Ho Ho

Christmas is finally here...

Fill ur life with Happiness & Bright Cheer,
Bring to u Joy and Prosperity for the whole Year,
And it’s my New Year wish 4 u …

Wish u a Merry Christmas & VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR.
Guess everyone of you will be busy counting how many presents Santa has given you this year...

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!! HO HO HO.....

Gift of Love

The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with the white cane made her way carefully up t\he steps. She paid the driver and, using her hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane against her leg.

It had been a year since Susan, 34, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis she had been rendered sightless, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness, anger, frustration and self-pity. And all she had to cling to was her husband, Mark.

Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all his heart. When she first lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again.

Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of the city. At first, this comforted Susan, and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task.

Soon, however, Mark realized the arrangement wasn't working. Susan is going to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But she was still so fragile, so angry - how would she react? Just as he predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again.
"I'm blind!", she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I am going? I feel like you're abandoning me."

Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it took, until she got the hang of it. And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all, accompanied Susan to and from work each day.

He taught her how to rely on her other senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and save her a seat.

Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus-riding companion, her husband, and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, And his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... Each day on her own went perfectly, and Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself.

On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying the fare to exit the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure do envy you." Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"

The driver responded, "It must feel good to be taken care of and protected like you are." Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you mean?"

The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine-looking gentleman in a military uniform has been standing across the corner watching you as you get off the bus. He makes sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building.

Then he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady." Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe - the gift of love that can bring light where there is darkness.

独家记忆

独家记忆 , is this song title .

this is one of my fav chinese song now . lyrics was quite meaningful , hope you guys like it too .

*reminded* stop the background music at the bottom of the page before playing this video , and if it hurts your ear , stop it straight away .

whats love ...

Open your eyes and see,How much I love you,And what you really mean to me.I love you but you don't know,I love you,But I'm afraid to show.I need you here with me,I promise,I'll never hate you,And that will never be.But why can't I just say,That I love you that way.I never felt this way before in my life.And sometimes,It really hurts like a knife!Cause I don't have the courage to tell youHow I feel.And to tell you,That my feelings for you are real.To tell you that I want you so bad,And tell you that if I could be with you,I'd be so glad.I hope you notice one day how I feel,And that you will see how I feel is so real.I hope you will love me some day,The way that I love you,And I promise I will always love you,I'll really do!So if you'd just take the first step,You really won't regret it.And I will love you every day a little more,Bit by bit. I hope these lines can make you see,What you really mean to me.What I'm trying to say,Is that I've never loved some one this way!

my design

hope my design is up to the standard ya .. haha . recently learning to use photoshop C3 . taken this pic at Pantai Jerudong Beach ..

21th dec ( sunday )

well , had a fun day today going ard to take picture . haha ..

19th Dec

Had a poolside steamboat kind of thingy in Riverside hotel this evening with some of my friends . the food was hmm , so so , variety not that much to choose from . but overall still ok .

is it True ??

“I am just too immature in my life and this relationship… I never know I have cause you so much pain and unhappiness… I always see things my way and neglect yours… Now that there is no turning back for us… I really wish that thing will be better for you… I’m Sorry for everything….” (Not the actual words)


I really find it very true most time when we are in love, we tends to slip into the direction when we make our decision… We only see things our way… When we stop loving someone, we just disappeared from the person life thinking that Time will heal… But sometimes, it doesn’t… What you think is the best way may not be the best way for another person…. We will always neglect the smallest details that can be added into something big and then no turning back then we realized “It’s too late…”


What it mean for you may not necessary be the best for the other party… When you want to have a group outing, he/she may only want to be sometime alone with you… When you want to go out, he/she may just want to stay home and cuddle… When you wanted trust, he/she may want the same from you… When you wanted commitment, he/she may not be ready… When you think that you no longer love, he/she may just want to have a chance again…

Penny of thought
“LOVE is only about the 2 of you…” But how true is this sentence…?
In the initial stage, maybe it is true but when time goes by… One start pondered how true this sentence is…

Is LOVE really about the 2 of us…? Is it really true?
Or is it only about you…..?

at last ...

At last .. the event had ended @ 1800hrs .. yeah .. yahoo..

was kinda busy this 2 days , woke up early in the morning and back in the late night . what kind of event is that .. making hell out of me .. lol .

Chistmas , hmm , hoping my wish is able to come true and see someone i wanna see . who is that ?? nah , i dont know either , Santa ? maybe .. haha ..

i guess my christmas this year will be just checking in a hotel and enjoy , relax myself there . but it cost me a bomb man , $240 per night . gosh ..
but once in a while i should pamper myself .. ya , so lets go ..

From my Heart

I know you've heard these words a hundred other times before

And you've been hurt and so your heart has chose to close the door

Love brook your heart and brought you lies

Look in my eyes You'll see a love that's deep and true

Tender and strong and all for you

You can trust this loveHonest, that's the honest truth

From the heart I'm giving you everything, everything

From the heart I promise you that I'll be there

I'll be there to love youFrom the soul

I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel is

From the heart, from the heartI will protect you and respect you and be all you need
And when you reach for love you'll only need to reach for me

These arms will never let you down .......................................................

A brand New Me

Gonna say goodbye 2008 soon , and welcome 2009 .

in this brand new year , has decide to change myself . for a brand new me .

wanna buff up my body , let the hidden one release and fufill its mission . and hmm , change a new look . ya .

well , in fact theres something in my mind now which i wanna type it out here . but guess i gonna for a meeting soon so lets this be continue later ....

"human will never say enough of what its got "

Everlasting Love ..

TO whom my future / current lover .. ( dont follow their steps , haha )




One fine day, an old couple around the age of 70, walks into a lawyer's office.Apparently, they are there to file a divorce.
Lawyer was very puzzled, after having a chat with them, he got their story....This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over yrs of marriage nothing ever seems to go right.
They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce....
Lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldnt understand why the old couple would still want a divorce..While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband.."I really love u, but i really cant carry on anymore, I'm sorry..""Its o.k, i understand.." said the husband. Lookin at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them,wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends..
At the dining table, there was a silence of awkardness.The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady.."take this, its your favourite.."Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe theres still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer.."This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, dont you know that i hate drumsticks?"
Little did she know that, over the years, the husband have been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband's favourite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drummsticks even though all he wants is the best for her.That night, both of them couldnt sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn...after hours, the old man couldnt take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he cant carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "i love you"...
He picks up the phone, starting dialing her number....ringing never stops..he never stop dialing....On the other side, she was sad, she couldn’t understand how come after all these years, he still doesnt understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just cant take it anymore....phone's ringing, she refuses to answer knowing that its him..."whats the point of talking now that its over...i have ask for it and now i wanna keep it this way, if not i will lose face.."she thought...still ringing...she have decided to pull out the cord...
Little did she remember, he have heart problems...
The next day, she received news that he had passed away...she rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the phone...he had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line....
As sad as she could be...she will have to clear his belongings...when she was looking thru the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, with the beneficiary being her... And together in those file, there was this note...
"To my dearest wife, by the time you're reading this, I'm sure I'm no longer around, I bought this policy for you, though the amount is only $100k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that i have made when we got married, I might not be around anymore, I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer. I want you to know I will always be around, by your side... I love you"
Tears flowed like river....

Easy ... or ...Diffcult ...

Easy to occupy a place in the Telephone directory

Difficult to occupy the heart of somebody

Easy to judge the errors of others

Difficult to recognize our own errors

Easy to hurt those whom we love

Difficult to heal those wounds

Easy to forgive others

Difficult to ask forgiveness

Easy to exhibit victory

Difficult to assume defeat with dignity

Easy to dream every night

Difficult to fight for a dream

Easy to pray every night

Difficult to find God in the smallest of things

Easy to say we love

Difficult to demonstrate it everyday

Easy to criticize everybody

Difficult to better/perfect ourselves

Easy to think of improving

Difficult to stop thinking and really do it

Easy to receive

Difficult to give

D.E.A.T.H

Early this morning , i recieved a txt from my friend , i was told that his mom had pass away in the hospital .

my heart sank with him , i can feel what is he going thru ..

so this is what am going say to you .

To You

don’t remember the first time I saw my mother’s laughing brown eyes I only know they always Shone so brightly upon me. Mama and I weren’t soul mates Yet we had our moments Of true and complete bliss. She and I enjoying what life brang How clearly her laughter rang. Then all too soon Came the moment before us A last intense look A squeeze of the hand And she was gone from my life So swiftly Leaving behind only memories. And yet, oh, how I wish I could have been Much truer, much dearer To my most trusted friend Mama your heaven’s brightest star I always see from afar.

what a day ..

what a day ! indeed ...

this afternoon went to have lunch with this lady frenz of mine , we were chatting over lunch . hit a topic of aj club .. hmm ...

well , not going into much detail of that , but she had ask me to join her to club in KL next year , and i agree with the idea she had , perhaps she already know me ( haha ) ..

during evening , one of my frenz make me laugh till my stomache cramp , what he did was , a group of us were smoking which by right we are not allow to in that area . out of sudden , he saw our boss is out . Of cos my frenz inform us abt that , so we lower down our cig . and when our boss is abt to pass by us . he say " here he come , get really to smile .. 1 , 2 , 3 , smile " haha , i really cant believe all my frenz did what he say . the scene is so cartoon ..

its been a long time , since i laugh till i cramp... hmm , and now in my room , kinda lost to my surrounding ..

Love hurt

When you are in love , you will always want the best for him/her... Nothing means more than just seeing him/her happy...
It always take 2 hands to clap... But sometime in the journey of being together, only 1 hand is clapping... At time it may work to your advantage but at time, it may not...When it does, you will have a longer relationship... When it does not, I guess you will know the answer better.

When you love someone... You are willing to do anything under the sun even if it may not be possible... You are willing to against all odds just to be with him/her. You are willing to sacrifice even it means letting him/her go so that he/she can be happy while you maybe suffering...

I was once a fool in love... And i not sure whether i will be again... I never notice the stress given, i never notice that maybe I giving too much too soon... But everytime, i hurt the most... I was once put off of the idea of being in love again... Scared and scarred from previous relationship make me a coward for love... But something inside me tell me at a certain point in my life, i will meet the "ONE"...Nothing is sure though...

But when you are in love... This is likely the person you are willing to be...

Kids in me

staring at you ! watching the wounds grow, searching for a clue or something to heal me. To wake up the kid inside me and wipe the tear which caused by you to understand . the talkative eyes and the silent little mouth ! to feel the pain instead of ignoring itto draw a smile rather a black sky ! .. to feel the rain within our daylight and to express the passion which spread my wings to become a butterfly ! in a garden filled with lights....

hmm.. christmas sad story ?

Several weekends ago, I was rushing around trying to do some shopping. I was stressed out and not thinking very fondly of the weather right then. It was dark, unseasonably cold, and wet in the parking lot.
As I was loading my car up, I noticed that I was missing a receipt that I might need later. So, mumbling under my breath, I retraced my steps to th mall entrance.
As I was searching the wet pavement for the lost receipt, I heard a quiet sobbing. The crying was coming from a poorly dressed boy of about 12 years old. He was short and thin. He had no coat. He was just wearing a ragged flannel shirt to protect him from the cold night's chill. Oddly enough, he was holding a hundred-dollar bill in his hand.
Thinking that he had gotten lost from his parents, I asked him what was wrong. He told me his sad story. He said that he came from a large family. He had three brothers and four sisters. His father had died when he was nine years old. His mother was poorly educated and worked two full-time jobs, She made very little to support her large family.
Nevertheless, she had managed to skimp and save two hundred dollars to buy her children some presents (since she didn't manage to get them anything on their birthdays). His mother had dropped off the young boy on the way to her second job. He was to use the money to buy presents for all his siblings and save just enough to take the bus home.
He had not even entered the mall, when an older boy grabbed one of the hundred dollar bills and disappeared into the night.
"Why didn't you scream for help?" I asked. The boy said, "I did." "And nobody came to help you?" I queried.
The boy stared at the sidewalk and sadly shook his head. "How loud did you scream?" I inquired.
The soft-spoken boy looked up and meekly whispered, "Help me!"
I realized that absolutely no one could have heard that poor boy cry for help. So I grabbed his other hundred and ran to my car.

christmas month

25th Dec , Chistmas Day .

every year i celebrate christmas in singapore . but guess this year gonna be different . wonder how am i gonna celebrate this year ....hmm..

to be continue ...

R.E.A.L.I.T.Y

At some point, you just move forward .....

" Special ones "

Parting brews the happiness of future reunion!
Loneliness creates more time for me to miss you!
Bitterness and sourness reminds me of sweetness!

Darkness makes brightness possible!
Existence of gap between us tells that we need to create more common space for each other!
Changes encourages the concerted effort between people to retain consistency!
Depletion makes people want to accumulate!

Welcome back to the real world

Welcome back to the real world ? been enjoying myself for this 10 days . so am i ready to switch back my mind set and face the reality . few more hours i'll be leaving this city to another city ..

Things do not happen for no reason , its happen to let you have a taste of life . so do your best in what may come ..

Day ? ( time to say goodbye )

Goodbyes are not forever.

Goodbyes are not the end.

They simply mean I'll miss you

Until we meet again!

Went to Cine last night , to catch a movie "BOLT"

it was kinda a pretty not bad , i guess . after the movie went down to maxwell for supper and headed home and rest . what a simple and relaxing day

Club

went to tabs last night , guess was drunk enough to dance topless . *argh* , who take the picture of me ....

Day 9 (M.O.O.D)

mind is blank at this moment ....

"photographs take their power from memory and emotion. A picture tells its own story, shaped by the mood or insights of the person you are at the time you see it. It becomes layered with the past and the present . "

feeling sucks ...

C.R.Y

I Hate To Cry!
© Elizabeth Rock
"I'm not scared of anything" I wish my lie was true. I don't want help, "I don't need anything from you!" I hate when I cry. I hate when I'm scared. My life is going by I can't feel anything, anywhere. I'm sad and depressed I'm weak an abused. I'm told I'm bad. I just don't know what to do. "I don't want your help" But I don't want to cry. "Leave me here" "Just say good-bye!" "So your gone....?" "Good riddance" I say! I guess I'm going to cry for Just one more day!

Day 8 ( 2 more day to Day 10 )

well , its already Day 8 , so lets recap of my time spent back in Day 1 to Day 8 .

was feeling happy as my time was well spent i must say . never knew to cherish time till today . kinda sad as well cos 2 more day am flying back to work , and guess wont be back till mid of next year . but the good thing is , i gain something back here , maybe its long to be mine but its always miss me . 加油, 柯游俊 . endurance to a greater height .

Thinking

Most time in life, we are constantly searching for the missing piece. It could be career, family, love, wealth, health and so on… And most time, we are so engrossed in finding it that we forget that we may have done something that may have directly or indirectly have caused someone to be unhappy...You are like a magician for your life and your life is a magic box… You can pull out anything from the box and present a wonderful show of your life to your audience but then sometime, you just need to know and realize that no matter, how perfect your show may be to yourself, there is always something imperfect about it that you just need to do it over and over and over again… You may either get it right or wrong but either way it still not perfect...
Sometime you will think that "I am the perfect guy for this person so why not me?" The truth is being the perfect person is who you think you are but others may not think the same... There will never be a perfect person for anyone in life or relationship but you learn and give yourself a chance for others to see a side of you that they didn't know... And for whatever reason it going to be, you should still be you...

Day 7 ( back to Sin )

went back to singapore alone this afternoon , so before i left , i treated my family for lunch , at AH YAT . gosh it's cost me a bomb for the set dishes , but once in a while , so it was ok .

2pm , on my way back home , gosh it was a long 8 hours journey . but i manage to survive . haha . upon reaching home , and try to on my lap top . Damn it , something wrong with my toy , the screen was totally in " Green " condition , was worries as i dont have much time left in singapore .

so decided to send it repair the next day morning , God bless , it was still " green screen " but after a while it was back to normal . hopeful nothing gonna happen again.

L.I.F.E

I believe you can lead a beautiful life. It's up to you how you want your life to turn out to be. There are lots of twists and bends along the way but one of the things you cannot give up is yourself. Give yourself a chance and give life a chance. Be happy for always. Cherish what you have and don't mull over thnigs that you do not have. And remember that you will always be loved by people around you.

Day 6 ( KL )

Went down to KL this morning , with my brother , intend to take a bus down but intead the cab driver manage to cling us to his cab . Haiz , am too soft hearted i guess . haha .

went to Pavilion , Lot 10 as well as chinatown before we stop our shopping and decide to head back to genting and rest , boy . its was a hot day .

Love is .....

"Love is for everyone but yet sometime, we are just too afraid to love because we are afraid of getting hurt... Love is like a seed, you need to plant it, water it, nourish it before it can blossom into something beautiful... Nobody say love is going to be easy and simple... it is the complexity of the individual human being that make Love interesting... What will life be like if everyone react the same to love? You learn from each phase of your life to be better for the person in your life... You learn to adapt, you learn to accept, you learn everything through the process... There is no dummy for love, just need to reach inside you because you are born out of love..."

- cherish everyone around you -

Day 5 ( Genting )

* before you read this post . FYI , i had been to Genting like 30 over times *

Didnt take much Picture here , as theres nothing really interest me to capture . above are the picture of parents and me myself , of course . weather is cooling .

went in to the Casino , happily go in , and down my head when came out .. haha guess should know whats the outcome ... sigh

Day 4

Wake up quite early today , went to have my breakfast @ Deli , was the 1st customer of the day . haha . anyway after breakfast went to the bank to settle some issues .

Head to Someset , to do some shopping as well vist my friends working there .

O ya , what a day , i bump into a long lost friend which i knew during my Sec Sch time . were chatting till he say " gosh , you sure have lot of girlfriends with my look " . i was like , hmm , really ... nah not gonna tell u guys what am i thinking after he say that .. Heading home after that and prepare my trip to Genting and KL . Shopping spree for me again.

My god , how much i gonna spend for this trip back ..